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This morning I was writing in my Writer's Journal and realized that by doing so I was dumping much of my insecurity about the writing that I do. Most writers will tell you that the writing that they do is horrible when they first seek to tell a story. I am no different. The initial writing I do for any story I am attempting to tell comes out awful in the beginning.
My Writer's Journal allows me to dump the feelings I have about anything and everything I write for the benefit of others. The journal itself serves a couple of purposes, because although it is a journal that primarily deals with writing, sometimes things about my day appear in it. I don't know why this is, it just is. I have been known to even dump a dream, or two, to it when the dream is a very strange one.
When I began journaling on November 30, 2011 I had no idea that it would blossom in to the thing that it became. By November 30, 2012 I had written some 220,000 words (to put that in to perspective, I wrote almost a quarter of million words) and as I looked back on my entries I discovered that many dealt with the frustration I felt over not accomplishing what I had set out to do daily with my written work. This brought me to a realization about how I perceive myself as a person who desires to be writer. By the way, it looks as though I will write more this year than last, which absolutely blows my mind.
The realization is this, I am like anyone else who is trying to accomplish something important to them. What? Am I to believe that I am the only one to become frustrated with themselves over an important, dare I say life changing, goal? No. I am like anyone else and my journaling reflects that completely and is a valuable tool in understanding this very important lesson about life in general.
I might make a recommendation to you as you look to invest in your future. It is to record in some way what you are experiencing as you move toward your goals. I choose to write, because I like to write. I keep it very simple; a composition notebook, a pen (a very special pen), and about an hour of time.
You might not like to write, so I might recommend to you a voice recording device of some kind. Most cell phones have a recording application on them where you can record your thoughts and download them to your computer. Digital recording devices are extremely inexpensive now, so maybe that is an option. There is also software that will convert what you speak to the written page, so you can have written record of your thoughts.
Possibly you draw or paint or have talents in other artistic mediums. It is possible to take an hour and draw or storyboard your day. The point is to express yourself in someway that releases the way you are feeling, whether it be good or bad. A big fan of photography, I have been known to get out and just shoot something, anything, that reflects my mood. I have done this alone and with fellow photographers.
My point in all of this is to share with you what I have discovered about expressing myself. It is to let go. For me, once my insecurities are down on paper they seem to dissolve away. It is that I needed to get it off my chest in order to move forward. I needed to let of it to get on with it.
I hope by sharing this little bit of experience it helps you discover ways to better accomplish what you have set out to do. Confidence in one's self is sometimes something that is difficult to first attain and then maintain. By dumping the negativity you may feel by writing it, speaking it, or just releasing it you may be very surprised to discover down the road that you have come far in your journey to accomplish the goals you have set for yourself.